Updated: Dec 11, 2022
Starting my blogging journey helped me sort out my life and lean towards what matters. Since I published my first blog post, blogging became second nature to me. Every minute of the day was dedicated to sourcing for blog topics, writing blog posts, creating photos, blog marketing, and social media. I treated my blog like my freelancing writing business. I was motivated and driven to create something original and helpful for trucker wives and women who had felt like me- lost and confused after losing my sense of self in my relationships due to over functioning, being over generous, and feeling responsible for others pain and hardship while neglecting my own needs and dreams. I would say my life definitely has changed, in terms of habits, self care, productivity, and character development. Blogging made me a better person.
So when I got a notification from Google the other day that it was my 14 year blog anniversary I was ecstatic. See I had started a small blog over at firstname.lastname@example.org when I first began struggling as new trucker wife. I had been mom shamed, not coping with a long distance marriage, triggered by panic attacks that awaken me to a deep hidden wound of abandonment and childhood emotional neglect. All this stress and drama lead me to escaping with food and being diagnosed with a binge eating disorder.
I must say, I never expected to maintain a blog this long…I have a million journals and planners that I start and never really stuck with! I somewhat expected this to be the same. Because as soon as I see a new cute journal I abandon the one I have for the newer version. Until I became more discipline with age and growth.
This platform is new. Now that summer is here, I told myself it was time to focus on writing about my life in recovery. Therefore, I created a new website after I rebrand my private practice and I decide I would blog a little over here to my new audience women who struggling with trauma and addiction. What I loved about my trucker wife audience over at email@example.com is that the interaction over there sustains me. I loved receiving all the emails and stories about their lives.
Although people come and go. I am happy for everyone’s successes and sad for their struggles. I get love and support back as I share my own struggle as a trucker wife living a married life but feeling like a single mom due to all of the time apart. The thing is no one really understand the struggle of the trucker wife with a binge eating disorder and deep emotional wounds of abandonment and childhood emotional neglect. I've meant some military wives, doctors, and first responder a little bit of sales industry wives who could relate. But not many who really understood what I was going through on an emotional level. The loneliness, pain, struggle and strength needed to thrive every single day. Especially, when there is four kids involved. But, I realize that the world is full of people trying their best and it is just as powerful to interact online as it is in person. Thank you all for that safe space for me to vent and not escape with food all these years. You all are part of my journey of recovering from binge eating and codependency.
When I quit escaping with food in Fall 2013 I though it was the end of something. It turns out it was the best beginning I could possibly have imagined. I new path I never could have ever imagine.
My life is no longer average and full of nothing but pain. I have a thriving private practice. I prevented a divorce, my own before giving up marriage and family counseling for good. My kids are growing up. I have struggles with mental and emotional health issues and come out on the other side with the help of God, Angels, My Ancestors, and all my Divine Team cheering me own. It is, however, lovely and a true blessing as I know I am blessed and highly favored. I have learned to manage the good with the very very hard. And God has given me grace and favor for my effort.
I hope this new platform does the same as my old one. The only difference is that it's a new chapter. A chapter of celebration, joy, ease, pleasurable moments. Adventures that I finally get to experience and very much deserve. I plan to hang around here for a long time. I hope my blog encourages others to consider a sober life free of emotional binge eating, sugar addiction, codependency people pleasing, financial stress, and impostor syndrome as it relates to fear of success and being abandon with a root cause of abandonment and childhood emotional neglect. It is a freedom unlike any other. If you're the one called to break the cycle in your own family generational wounds please wear that badge as a badge of honor and do all you can to spread awareness to help others feel confident to love themselves enough to begin their own journey. May God bless you all.
Love and Light,
Dr. Nikki LeToya White
What are you healing from? Do you write, blog or paint to ensure you live a sober life? If not how do you practice self care to remain sober and free from addictions? Please share your story and wellness plan or feel free to email me.
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About The Author:
Dr. Nikki LeToya White MSEd-TL, Ph.D. RHN is the founder, director and a full time board certified trauma-informed nutritionist, folk herbalist, and wellness consultant at Spiced Life Conversation Art Wellness Studio and Botanica. She created Spiced Life Conversation, LLC
Art Wellness Studio and Botanica to provide the Metro Atlanta area with a counseling and coaching services where clients are carefully matched with the right program for healing abandonment and childhood emotional neglect trauma that cause codependency, emotional eating, financial stress, and imposter syndrome as it relates to fear of success and being abandon. We help you begin your emotional healing journey with ease. Recently, we have expanded to include online membership site so we now provide support to people living all over the world. All of our recovery coaches provide at least one evidence based treatment to assist in your recovery. Dr. White is a big proponent of self care and helping people live a fulfilling life! She has been in full remission with both codependency and emotional binge eating disorder since 2016. In live a life in recovery from sugar addiction. Loving her low sugar balance lifestyle.