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I am Dr. Nikki LeToya White and I believe that women can thrive despite past traumas. I am a Licensed Ordain Minister serving as an Intuitive Spiritual Counselor, Registered Licensed Board Certified Trauma-Informed Nutritionist, Folk Herbalist, Wellness Practitioner and Leadership Coach. I am also a Licensed Board Certified Public Notary and Loan Signing Agent and a best-selling author of the LonerWife Diaries Series. I am passionate about mental and emotional health wellness for women. As a patient, therapy helped me to create healthy boundaries, be confident, and prioritize my mental and emotional wellness. Now, as a counselor, I provide a safe and supportive space for women who struggle with codependency and emotional eating to shift from feeling overwhelmed and stressed to thriving as they explore the wound healing process.

 

I would like to help you end unhealthy cycles and start living the LIFE YOU WERE MEANT TO LIVE AND DESERVE.  Are you ready to start your healing journey to learn treatment for wounds? Whatever your struggles, I are here to support you as you bring your wound closure.

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During my healing and recovery journey I've learned that life doesn’t always go in a straight line. Our life choices and everyday decisions can get really messy and tangled, things move fast with an overwhelming sprint and our paths twist and turn in many directions. The right things happen at the wrong time and opportunities get passed by due to lack of knowledge and inexperience. 

 

Some things happen within our life experience that we just cannot understand in the moment no matter how badly we want an answer. And some things that we wish would happen just never do. In order to get through all these difficult emotions and to understand how to remove many of the obstacle, uncertainty, and negativity I learned to do spiritual work for wound care and spiritual energy healing as part of my recovery for healing the abandonment wound. 

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Shadow work, aura cleanse, and balancing my chakra has all been apart of my wound healing recovery to understand how to cope with loss, negative fear based thinking, toxic relationships with my self and others and most of all how to practice wound care, self care, self love, how to pray for healing and develop my intuition. 

 

About Shadow Work

 

First, I want to say shadow work is not black magick or harmful. There's misconception about that when someone says shadow work. My journey to learning more about my ancestors and Africa Spirituality my spiritual teacher explained to me that like winter is to summer, dark is to light, and moon is to sun, we have a shadow self. it's a part of our soul journey here on earth to find our light in the darkness. It's the difficult, painful, our inner demons so to speak feelings in our minds and hearts. It's a spiritual teacher belief to have a balance of both light and darkness. Keep in mind darkness is not necessarily evil sometimes its fears and insecurities. 

 

The shadow is a term coined by psychologist Carl Jung, and it refers to our deepest wounds. The wounds that have us believing we're flawed, unlovable, undeserving people. A lot of these wounds occur when you are a child. Like a childhood trauma, being bullied or harassed. or in my case the abandonment wound which is a deep core trauma. It impacts us not only on a human level, but also on a soul level. I believe that unhealed trauma, usually rooted in childhood, is the only thing separating us from the love of God, loving ourselves as well as loving others unconditional without, conditions. This is what allows us to remain trapped in the control of the fear based worldview. Right now, there is a massive awakening happening to humanity. We are being called to heal our deepest wounds to create space for our souls purpose and break generational cruses of trauma and addiction. We can't let love and light in if these wounds go unsolved. It's about unlocking those darker thoughts and memories and facing them.

 

My teacher said shadow work is about confronting those uncomfortable feelings. Past wounds, childhood trauma, and unresolved pain from relationships.  Anger, guilt, shame, grief, and hatred are some issues that could go unresolved due to triggers cause by people that threaten your shadow self. If these feelings go unresolved they can cause more problems. That's why  open wound healing is so important. If not, open wounds can lead to violence, destruction, addictions, and reckless behavior. It can also lead to physical illness. You can wear your body down physically and emotionally. It blocks us from our potential and being positive and happy. This information made so much sense to me. It felt true on a deep soul level therefore, I embraced it and practice it within my daily inner work of wound healing and charka healing for abandonment wound and childhood emotional neglect. 

 

Using Shadow Work Journaling As A Tool For Healing Emotional Wounds

 

My shadow work journal helps bring clarity to my life. I'm able to process my deepest pain and release habits that where keeping me from recovering, healing, and being financial stable. It gives me the ability to focus on who I am, what I am good at, what my weakness are, and most importantly what makes me, me. When you struggle with codependency people pleasing you tend to lose yourself. My shadow work journal allows me to stay true to my identity, sense of self, and who I am as an individual that way I no longer feel responsible for the moods, feelings, behavior, opinions, life choices, hardships, finances, and happiness of those around me. 

 

The more I learn about my authentic self the more I have the ability to represent who I am as a person. With this truth I place that truth on a board as reminder to honor my own needs, feelings, values, beliefs, and inner voice. This allows me to own who I am, not hide or be ashamed of my uniqueness or flaws. I embrace all of me. The good and bad. 

 

In my discovery I learned that my greatest strength is I have a caring heart. A caregiver personality. I care way too much about people especially when someone is hurting or need support I tend to feel their pain and experience hurting too. This triggers me and as a result I rescue, fix, save and try my best to please them. Because I care so much it leaves me vulnerable to get taken advantage of, manipulated, and walked on.

 

I tend to sacrifice my needs to honor others feelings and needs. When others refuse to show me the same love, respect, and dedication I feel ignored, misunderstood, abandon, and uncared for. In short I feel disappointed and disrespected. I wonder why is it okay for me to show love and support but others always seem to be unavailable or self absorbed with their own needs. It seems as if they are okay with me staying stuck or abandoning my own needs as long as their needs are met or they get what they want. This breaks my heart!

 

Instead of acknowledging how I feel and dealing with the issues at hand, I escaped with food and developed a binge eating disorder. Being rejected, shamed, and excluded I had no idea how to deal with the stress and pressure. With that said, after years of self discovery I was able to manage my stress, fears, and emotional scars.

 

Then in 2013 I relapsed. Since then everyday I've strived to heal and recover by honoring God and practicing self care. I've been in full remission for seven years now.

 

Along with my shadow work journal I follow a simple wellness plan.

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• Shadow Work Journal to process my emotions.

• Sleep schedule

• Water. Whole Food. Workouts

• Mood. Energy and Stress Management.

• Self-Care Routine

• Gratitude Journal

• Tag Sessions: Time Alone With God, Ancestors, to hear guidance and development my inner voice in order to take inspired action within my life. 

 

I challenge everyone to take this journey with me to slow down and remember who you are as a person because your feeling matters, your voice matters, your needs matters, and you matter as an individual. I learned that I am more than just a daughter of a police officer, a trucker wife, and mom of four. I am Nikki. I am Dr. White. I am a child of God. I am a business owner. I am a role model to not only my clients, employees and children but to all women with addiction and unresolved trauma who are struggling to rebuild there lives just as I have done. Most importantly I have dreams, goals, and needs too, and that's okay. In fact that is great. I own my needs and desires!

 

I hope you choose to join me on this journey of abandonment wound healing. This challenge will help you figure out your shadow self's emotions, where they came from and what you need to do to heal them. There are various types of healing exercises. There is journaling, divination, meditation, drawing and other types of writing. The one we're going to focus on is the shadow journal. In a journal write a negative feeling you are experiencing. Write each emotion at the top of your paper. Take each emotion/paper and ask yourself questions. For example: Anger, what angers me? What can I let go of that angers me? Why am I so angry? How can I be reborn without anger? How would my life be better without anger? Do this with every emotion you wrote down on each piece of paper. This is a good way to confront your emotions and reflect on what you need to do to make it better. This exercise will help you learn how to process your emotions and deal with stress opposed to suppressing how you feel. 

 

I would love to hear your story!

 

Email me and let me know how things are going. All you have to do is start the process with your shadow journal. 

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So lets get to it!

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If you need help book a clarity sessions and I can walk you through the process. 

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