Student-Level Healing Journey

 

Recently, I hosted an Emotional Healing in 3 Easy Steps Wellness Workshop in Downtown Athens, Georgia with my Student Level Clients. On the Student Level folks are on the fence about how to emotionally heal and begin their emotional healing recovery journey from abandonment and childhood emotional neglect trauma that cause self-sabotaging, self-abandonment, and addictions: co-occurring behavior that includes

 

codependency (people pleasing), emotional eating (sugar addiction, cravings, and dependency in times of stress and drama ) financial stress (taking on others' debt, stress, unhappiness, and money blocks) impostor syndrome (fear of success and being abandoned) all the things I help clients overcome.

 

When this happens most folks want to shrink, hide, play small, self-sabotage, and neglect their own needs, wellness, life, and business goals. (Get out of their soul contract)I've seen folks like myself who tend to lose themselves in one-sided relationships. Some sabotage relationships by not being willing to forgive and move past what happened to them- blaming not only the folks that hurt them but also the ones who are there for them trying to give them the love and support they need to help them heal and recover while they do their best to fulfill their soul contract. This kind of unconditional love is something they haven't been able to accept or receive due to a close heart, painful memories, and unresolved pain from the past keeping them stuck in that season of their life when the trauma happen.

 

The feeling in this stage is: Being Lost. 

When your sense of abandonment and emotional neglect or abuse goes on for years, especially at a young age, you live in a fog. You have no clue about who you are. You have no visibility about where you are, about your past or what is your destination. Coping mechanisms are unhealthy and self-sabotaging (binge eating, bulimia, anorexia, depression, excessive gambling, excessive shopping, alcohol, drugs, opioids, lack of trust, social anxiety, etc…) are part of your daily routine. And you are unaware of an alternative. You are living in “LOST” or "DISCONNECTION" without understanding how to get unstuck from this emotional pain. In my dark night of a soul experience, I learned about soul contracts which gave me a spiritual shift on how I come to view the world, people, and my self-image. Soul contracts were very fascinating to me and it gave me much comfort knowing that many of the relationships and life events and challenges were preordained by me and a higher council from the divine and settled upon before my arrival on earth. This belief just felt true to me. It made sense. This truth causes me to be able to forgive those that hurt me. It also causes me to interact differently with those around me. I begin to see things as lessons to grow my spirit and coincidences that shape or impact the lives of those I cross as well as folks impacting my journey rather good or bad, it was all lessons I can learn and grow from to make a better decision as I manifest my life on earth. 

 

This Motivated Me To Break The Cycle of Abandonment and Neglect and Teach Folks To Heal From Trauma and Addiction So They Could Live The Life They Were Meant To Experience. 

 

When your goal is to break the circle of abandonment and neglect, the challenge is huge.

Most times folks jump right into research mode. They begin to search for everything and anything there is to know about healing childhood trauma: Books, blogs, YouTube, etc. You read testimonies, search for answers, and compare them to your own life. By comparing the “theory” to your life, you begin to see the patterns of your life, your past, and your present. Learning would be your first step on how to heal from emotional abuse one step at a time. You switch from a passive version of yourself to an active one. Then you begin to imagine an alternative to your past and present. You begin therapy, create a roadmap or connect with the right friends, imagine an alternative route for your life, and read empowering blogs and stories like my own. 

 

Those pondering how to start their emotional healing journey or what is the best way to heal emotional trauma and unresolved past wounds find my self-care rituals and own unique life lessons from my experience comforting and inspiring in motivating them to begin healing and learn more about the fascinating topic of soul contracts. 

 

When I started my emotional healing journey to heal my past abandonment wound and childhood emotional neglect trauma, I felt stuck and had a MAJOR fear of success and being abandoned.

 

I didn't want to talk about my shame story from my past. I didn't even know what a soul contract was. I knew my mom and family did the best they could with the knowledge they had at the time. I knew I was loved. But I wasn’t sure what I needed to do to get started or break through the pain of feeling unwanted, unloved, misunderstood, ignored, and different, and my fear of being abandoned if I was successful in life. I felt like if things were going too well that my life would change and my loved ones would leave me. This was a recurring theme in my life. This also causes self-sabotaging behavior.

 

Rejection and abandonment had been the recurring pattern for my experience as a child after my father chose not to have a relationship with me and my mother had to leave me to pursue her career in law enforcement to take care of us, then in my adult life, my husband left me to pursue his career as a over the road truck driver which triggered this deep wound I never knew existed until a cycle of five to be exact "panic attacks" sent me to the ER. In my mind success equals being abandoned, the recurring theme, and challenge I seem to endure in my life. Always the caretaker, the giver, the self-sacrificer, and the loner. This false belief became a money block as well as a traumatic stronghold in my life and long-distance marriage as a trucker wife that had affected my thinking, personal life, and business goals.

 

It needed to be acknowledged and dealt with if I was to receive God's grace and blessing for the life I was meant to experience. Most importantly, so it wouldn't be passed down to my children and the next generation as a generational emotional wound. It was up to me to break the cycle. 

 

If you’re wondering how to heal unresolved pain so you can bring your lost self back and reconnect to your authentic self, I have helpful resources to share with you that I offered to my clients during the wellness workshop. Hopefully, these resources can help you decide if you're ready to do the work needed to heal and recover. I believe sharing your shame story and reading about others (fiction or nonfiction) are powerful ways to embrace change and choose yourself so you can begin healing and living your best life. 

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All the Best

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Dr. Nikki LeToya White